Gaiety Ann

莫文蔚-如果沒有你

2011-04-18T14:05:00.000+08:00

你说呢？

2011-04-11T15:20:00.002+08:00

好像不太接受得了，但也论不到我说什么？你说呢？你开心吗？真开心吗？有时候太执着，痛苦的永远是自己，放不下，痛苦的也是自己。你好吗？真好吗？一张张漂亮的脸孔，看的我心好寒，好寒.... 是这样的吗？应该是这样的吗？不是说好的吗？你说呢？我常对自己说，我只要你快乐，真的只要你快乐, 可是看见你快乐，分享不了，我的心为何回痛？如果我说了不一样的话，今天的我会看见不一样的我和你吗？会有不同吗？你说呢？会吗？

我还是会祝福你，永远快乐

It can really stress u out~

2011-03-28T12:05:00.002+08:00

I seriously do not like the idea of collecting students's money for any purposes... it can really stress you out!!! for the total $ for the books i order for my students from China BeiJing costing more than 12k in total... i can't even take a single WHAT IF... thankfully... the books hv finally arrived after more then 2 months of waiting due to Chinese New Year last month. :)

Work load as a teacher... If it is only TEACHING is already heavy... imagine all these paper work, from record books to preparing materials and all school affairs meeting, open house, sports day, etc etc and etc...

and the thing that is utmost stress factors is when the school call for a meeting for an hour every now and then... sigh... wondering what's going to be in the meeting today is stressing me out!

阿牛陈庆祥一点点

2011-02-14T12:36:00.000+08:00

在你心中我只剩下一点点
我站在你即将遗忘的边缘
怎么我还不想看清这一切
你早已经不留恋
我不应该再想念
第几个失眠的夜我也没发觉
这房间冷清了一点点
你提分开的那天阳光很刺眼
我并不是无所谓
时间从来没出声
它静静等谁改变
一年之前差一步或许就有缘
有过幸福我就不埋怨
在你心中我只剩下一点点
我站在你即将遗忘的边缘
怎么我还不想看清这一切
你早已经不留恋
我不应该再想念
第几个失眠的夜我也没发觉
这房间冷清了一点点
你提分开的那天阳光很刺眼
我并不是无所谓
在你心中我只剩下一点点
我站在你即将遗忘的边缘
怎么我还不想看清这一切
你早已经不留恋
我不应该再想念
在我心中你也还剩一点点
藏在我心房里面的最里面
当你已经找到新的甜苦依恋
我会更努力一点
寂寞不被任何人发现

开学了

2011-01-05T11:32:00.003+08:00

好不开心，好不好不好不开心。。会不会是肚子饿了？问天会不会有答案？五号，今天五好了，开学第三天。越教越迷惘，越教越彷徨。。看着他们的脸孔，还真的有些后悔，后悔踏上这条回不了头的路。对了吗？错了吗？我不能每天都这样回头看，只能往前去，前面的路可好走？可我好像不是在找好走的路，不是吗？深深的呼吸，想想，我其实不过是个过客，来匆匆的，去也匆匆，别在固执，人生不过是如此而已，别老想着那让我不开心的人与物。

A new Chapter..

2011-01-04T10:45:00.003+08:00

Another year has past, this time, the year ended fast and started rush.. days before new year was packed with meetings, and new year started with best friend wedding and followed by school reopen. I miss my younger students. I have started working in a new school (again). This time, i hope I will never need to change my work place for the next at least 5 years. I hate moving around.

This year, i will be teaching form 1-3 mandarin, class mandarin standard is huge, i have the majority of at least 60% of them who can speak n read mandarin and the other half who can't even understand a single word.

Guess all international or private school mandarin teacher faces the same problems i have. Sometimes i really question myself and i am really not sure if i am in the correct field. At least, i am thankful and glad that i am out from government school, and seriously salute all temporary teachers who are still trying and hanging on there. you guys are just so amazing and tolerating.

updates on student who refuse to do his homework.

2010-08-23T09:33:00.003+08:00

I warned him on Thursday last week, threaten to move his table n chair out the classroom if his work is not completed on the following day. Expected, this boy did not even bother to wrote a single word in his workbook. at 8am in the morning, I moved his table and chair out the classroom, shock and panic, he finished all his pending work that day and woola! all homework was completed and passed up today. hopefully this will last until end of the year.. or as long as possible.

Students who refuse to do their homework

2010-08-19T11:35:00.002+08:00

I am not trained to be a teachers, as much as i love to teach.. I'm yet to trained to be one. I have one unique student in class who just refuse to do homework, no matter how nice to talk to him, how angry you shout at him, or even, buy gifts for him if he complete his work.

He is the second child at home, he has a full time mother of 4 sons, but yet, with such terrible attitude and behaviors... sometimes, the teachers would just lose temper and shout, he don't care... sometimes the teachers calm and talk to him nicely, like talking to baby, he will still refuse to do it, and sometimes, just normal chat. and he will also do nothing about it. Parents would even come to school and tell the teachers that his son doesn't do him HOMEWORK... well.. .WE CALLED THAT HOMEWORK for a reason, it is suppose to be completed at home, not in the class. We need to do CLASSWORK when in the classroom!

so... who's fault it is, could it be the 7-8 years old or could be the teachers or could it be the parents? or the environment? shouldn't be the environment because everyone else will do their homework. I do not know.. seriously, i am sick of child like this.. parents who refuse to teach or guide at home, expecting all work including the welfare of the child should be done by teachers.. i am sorry but to inform all parents who are reading this blog, as mush as, as far as the teachers would love to guide your child, please do remember, we have other 20-30 students in the class who equally needs the attention in the class.

since i started my teaching career, my patients has been tested everyday, everyday i realise more that i have under estimated my patients with children, but this one particular child has just pushed it.. and i cannot forgive myself every time i feel like telling myself to give up.. because, if i give up on him, no one else can help him.. how can i make him realise that we really do care and it is for his own benefits?

and parents, if you cannot teach your child, at least, you help the one who is helping you and working hard for your child.

教总教育资讯网 - 致函教育部，以反映有关假期师训班的事宜

2010-07-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

教总教育资讯网 - 致函教育部，以反映有关假期师训班的事宜

王力宏『柴米油鹽醬醋茶』完整版MV English Subs

2010-07-19T09:57:00.001+08:00

Condolence

2010-07-05T13:41:00.001+08:00

Deepest Condolence to your lost of your father, Ms Kuay.. I am very very sorry to hear that...

蕭煌奇 - 愛作夢的人 MV (HQ)

2010-07-05T10:14:00.000+08:00

江蕙--風吹風吹

2010-06-28T10:02:00.000+08:00

Feeling the need to talk to myself.

2010-06-28T09:32:00.002+08:00

Feeling the need to talk to myself today. Life has been so busy and I am loosing focus on what i want and need in life. Have been busy moving into a new life, and life has seem never been better, it is so good that I am very afraid that it won't last long.

Job has been the same, had a few job offer but have decided to declined it, simply cannot afford a pay cut at the moment. But also, should I still stay in this job? is that what I want? I might be able to fulfill what i want... Have i forgot what i need? Do i really need to do this.. I've been trying to live in denial but i think it is almost time... almost time to decided..

feeling betrayed & cheated..

2010-04-08T12:00:00.001+08:00

When was the last time i have this feeling, feeling betrayed and cheated.. but this time, by an organization.

making everyday special

2010-03-30T11:52:00.006+08:00

Did you realise that, everyday is special. it can be big, or small. but i find something special everyday, i learn something new everyday.

For example, it makes today special just by remembering someone's birthday. it can be anyone, parents? friends? colleagues? or today, a child smile at you, for not special reason. or i punished a few children today? it makes today different from any other day.

A place you call your very own place..

2010-03-20T13:49:00.002+08:00

What do you call a place that it is totally completely belong to you.. you very own place.. you call it home.. and yes.. finally, a place that i can call it my own. A place that belong to you & your love one... wait a minute.. it actually belongs to the... BANK.. and we are belong to the bank for the next......^%$ years?! ish.

no child is stupid, it all depends on the teacher's capabilities

2010-02-24T14:09:00.002+08:00

Do you agree with me if i says, there are no stupid child but only lazy teachers? i strongly believe in this, this is my second year teaching, I've realise that, actually, if you are willing to teach, make efforts, take the extra steps, all children can learn, of course, some teacher will says, some kids are just impossible to get their attention. I've also realise that children who can't concentrate in class are the easiest to teach once you can get their attention, how? make it as interesting as the tree and the birds and the workers outside the classroom.

I hate to shout in class, because every time after i shout, i tense up everyone in the class, then, it is so weird to change the mood back to the fun learning environment, even tho, for me, it is almost like a switch, i can shout at this student, and next smile at those who are good. but it is somehow odd.

I question myself alot lately, without the proper "theoretical" teacher training, what makes me better or at least, qualified to teach? i was not even train to teach, furthermore, teaching young child. I question myself, on my capabilities of teaching, i learn something new everyday, every time i enter the class, i learn some new tactic on how to teach. what the answer to my questions, is when my student finally understand what i teach.

I find each and almost every child is unique, in their very own way. Of course, to their parents, they are the most precious, and most special, and most unique. but in most teachers' eyes, they tend to catogorise them, which i don't blame, because, i did the same, for a long time until recently, that i actually look into every single one of them (also get to know them better), i realise, and also try very hard, to pay attention to everyone of them, to find their specialties, their very own uniqueness.. I believe, that is probably the best gift I can give to every one of them, to help them find out, what they are good in...

emo morning

2010-02-08T08:17:00.005+08:00

less than one week to cny... unlike usual... or maybe it is usual, that i have lost the momentum n enthusiasm in it, since I don't know how many year ago. this will be the 3rd year celebrating cny as a married couple. know what every is going to ask again the same old question, guess it will never change the fact that people just like to either talk about the weather or when r u getting marry, when do want your kids and when is the next one coming along and what's their result in school, etc etc.. isn't there any other better things to talk about? i wonder... talk about movie, talk about cars, talk about fashion, talk about books... talk about health... let's not talk about my weight n when am i getting my first child, because, you cannot imagine how badly i want it..

the older i get, the less friends i have, ignore the number "friends" i have in fb because these are friends made years ago and we dun keep touch but to look at each other new updated status or new uploaded photos.

working colleagues.. u get lazy trying to keep good friends after some time, because u no longer find time for urself.. what more about friends... soon will realise that it is a luxury to have friends..

It stop... n came back again

2010-02-08T08:07:00.002+08:00

It was more than 2 weeks late... but from the beginning, i know it was just late.. nothing else.. no matter how difficult it is.. I have told myself not to give up, I still find it really difficult to proceed in this... will it ever actually ever will happen... will it? I hate to ask the question why because it will only create nothing but depression.. the more thankful we are, the easier life can be.. every time when i switch into this depression mode, i will tell myself that, u know what, u have way better life than those who have.. you get almost all the freedom you want..

failure..

2010-01-25T17:23:00.001+08:00

1st round of trying on the fertility pill failed.. we were too stressed out... Doc advised us to be on our own for 2 more cycle before trying IUI..

going on fertility pills for the next cycle

2009-12-19T15:45:00.001+08:00

done it.. Hysterosalpingogram(HSG)

2009-11-30T11:24:00.003+08:00

It was very uncomfortable..and the uncomfortable( like period pain) goes on for the whole day.. it is the test to check if my fellopian tube is not block.. the test turn out good.. that there were not block.. cost us RM600+ (including the test and consultation) VERY expensive.. next going to check my egg(Ultra sound).. let's see how big it grew .. seeing the doc again tmr.. feeling the financial stress... how much more is it going to cost us..

哭 - 林憶蓮

2009-11-30T11:19:00.002+08:00

哭 - 林憶蓮
曲︰李宗盛
詞︰林振強
編︰JENNY CHIN
他一切是關於你　微笑及眼睛似足你
離別你再與你相遇　其中彷彿千世紀
你可愛的孩兒不知　某天我跟你寫的故事
和當中意思

好嗎你　如今是爸爸的你
我衷心祝福你　我的心雖因你

哭　哭一雙好戀人
差一些會一世共行　無奈又終須分
哭　哭身邊的小孩　可知這一個過路人
某天差一點已變了他的母親

他一切是關於你　神氣實太跟你相似
如若我再次向他洼視　原因只得你知
我心這天仍然依依　某些我應放低的往事
纏繞一輩子

好嗎我　如今尚孤身的我
會說一聲不錯　你永不可知我

哭　哭一雙好戀人
差一些會一世共行　無奈又終須分
哭　哭多想都不能　觸摸你擁抱你但願能
永遠都祝福你　永遠心中把你親

a Call to Dr Delaila office

2009-11-23T22:52:00.004+08:00

Called Dr. Delaila on 3 days ago(Friday) to inform her nurse that i just had my menstrual, so i can be arranged to do a test on my fallopian tube. A calls form SimeDarby Medical Centre today in the morning, to inform to get ready for the test on this coming Saturday. :)

A day back home

2009-11-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

Back home last night to have dinner with parents and also to stay a night home.. with Maya. Back PJ today for a Tuition session and realise that i am not wearing my wedding RING! got panic but try real hard to stay calm in front of a 6 years old. Continue to stay calm and later pick up ems for our tomyam session at Ikano Center, which was absolutely delicious.. .

then back to Cheras again(found my ring on the bed) to send potter (our mini pintcher) for her annual hard worm and vaccination. spent almost 1 hours there.

continue to work for my SPM... taking place on the 14th of December 2009..

something I not sure

2009-11-20T15:01:00.002+08:00

I thought I used to have this capabilities of making friends.. however.. lately I've realise that.. either i am over friendly or people around me has change.. or I just not worth to be a good friend anymore.. It usually never take me too long to make friends but in my new job.. for 9 months now.. I've made non.. not even one which is close... that makes me wonder.. why.. My mom used to tell me when i was very young.. that as you grown.. your friend list wil get less.. and like her.. will eventually become.. almost non because she got no time for them...

Got some christmas gifts and i was told by a fren that rich people normally get more frens because they can afford to buy friends gifts.. the world has turn this realistic?

1 thing i do realise is i am losing my PR skills... and also losing time to spend with friends.. either that.. I've never make any good ones.. only self proclaimed good one..

Pending

2009-11-20T14:29:00.001+08:00

Pending for the arrival of my period.. so I can be schedule for the test on my tube..

A phone call from Dr Delaila Clinic

2009-11-18T08:12:00.003+08:00

A phone call from Dr. Delaila office at 9.30pm last night.. the nurse told me that my test for endometriosis is normal... i ask her again.. normal means i do not have to eat medication? yes.. normal means i don't have endometriosis.. yes! :) so that;s a GOOD NEWS!

so here it comes the consultation..

2009-11-17T10:12:00.002+08:00

so.. the doctor gave us a smile.. & apologise for kept us waiting.. It really doesn't matter at the moment.. then she asked.. so.. what can she do for us... suddenly.. i feel like something was stuck in my throat.. how to start.. from where to start.. what to start.. I look at hb blankly... and he said.. let's not waste her time here... and guess he said something like.. We would like to tried out IUI as we have been trying for some time..

Then i get into the details.... ..... almost 3 years married and trying.. would like to do IUI.. .my medical history.. etc..endometriosis.. etc.. my previous operations.. etc.. and she gave some advise and scan my tummy. & ... things that are not suppose to be are not in.. so guess every was OK to the ultra sound scanning.. then we sat down.. n she took out a piece of paper.. when i tot she is going to teach my how to count ovulation date.. before she says anything.. i said.. i have counted too many times.. guess she was not very happy that I didn't listen to her first. So.. it comes down to 4 important factors when it come to fertility.. first is the egg..when she will do the scan on the 12th day... 2nd is the tube.. which i need to do a test on on the 10th day of my first day of period.. then 3rd is lining.. and 4. .the sperm.. which hb will need to do a test..

as for my endometriosis which was one of her concern.. we did a blood test to see if there are any.... and they will probably call me tonight...

these are the basic check we need to do before we proceed with any fertility treatment.. such as IUI... it does not turn out as what is expected.. i tot we can schedule for an IUI next month :P.. ... however, I was very glad that we see this doctor as she was very detail & patient... regardless that it was already 12am + in the morning.. very thankful... and sleepy also...

to be continue..

interesting.. finally..

2009-11-17T09:54:00.004+08:00

After 2 years and six months.. for the very first time, hb finally go to the gynea with me last night..Thankkful and being extreamely hopeful.. we went to the gynea (Dr. Delaila) last nite at SS19.. hoping to consult her on fertility issue (actually wanted her to do IUI straight) as i have read so much positive comments on her thru some forums.

I called at 7pm and heard that already 1name was on the list.. I then quickly bath and get hb to go together.. We left PJ at 8 and reach there at almost 8.30 (raining & the traffic was heavy).

When we reach there at 8.30pm.. guess what number i got? no 11!! already no 11... registered myself and ask the nurse how long it will probably take.. she told me.. she is not sure.. i ask again, an hour? or 2 hours? she said.. around there... argh... told hb and we decided to go n get come vegetables for cooking... he then fetch me to Subang Taipan.

In Taipan, we went to see furniture, visit pet shop and even had dessert.. at around 9.40pm, we were back in SS19.. and i went into the clinic, the nurse gave me the "peace" sign.. i whispered.. "2 more to me u mean?' ... she quickly say no.. as it is only NO 2!! .. Oh no... this is going to be forever i thought.. I went back to sit in the car as the clinic was already packed with people.. trying to keep everyone's mood positive.. we tried to fill our times with some jokes and games.. .at 10pm, i went in a ask again.. she told me.. that it is now still no 3.... HURHHH... no 3... we then estimate our time.. that will make it MID NIGHT when it is our turn... so want to give up... but hb says he will no come back if we go home now...then i didn't want to walk in there anymore.. i decided to just call the clinic to ask then no...

at 10.30pm... i remember it was at no 6.. NO 6! .. then hb n i decided to eat some supper.. we went to the nearer mamak... at 11pm i tried calling and i was at no 7... .. really feel like it is goin to take forever! and then... at 11.10.. we left the mamak n went n wait in the clinic.. the lady to me that it is at NO 9 now.. HOO RAY! close close!!! when no 10 go in.. i almost feels like crying already! :) finally..... finally.. round 11.35pm.. we finally meet our doctor.. almost run to her n hug her! ...

to be continue..

forgot how it feels like to be sick

2009-11-13T12:58:00.002+08:00

Touch wood, as every time i say something like "it has been a while since i last fall sick", that's when the virus will attack. So this time it was by a parents i assume because one parent cough into my face last week n since then i was feeling weak but trying my best to beat that virus.. however... body finally give in on Tuesday night after school... together with the stress from school.. i felt sick on Tuesday and decided to take an off day on Wednesday, knowing that there are no way i can take a day off on Thursday (concert day). and today, after the hectic concert day which took place last nite.. i am even more sick n tired now.. and I can't help but to take today off from work too.

Even then, it doesn't mean that i can rest, i have to prepare for the secondary school report card... my boss wanted it today at 12 but i could barely breath last nite i told her to let me do it over the weekend... luckily she was too bz but to say yes to me last nite.. again i sitll cannot do it now as my eyes is tearing n nose is sneezing non-stop.. sigh.. hope to finish this report card soon so i can get this out of my HEAD!

Michael Jackson’s “This Is It”

2009-11-01T13:42:00.001+08:00

This is it, here I stand
I’m the light of the world, I feel grand
Got this love I can feel
And I know yes for sure it is real

And it feels as though I’ve seen your face a thousand times
And you said you really know me too yourself
And I know that you have got addicted with your eyes
But you say you gonna live it for yourself.

I never heard a single word about you
Falling in love wasn’t my plan
I never thught that I would be your lover
C’mon baby, just understand

This is it, I can say,
I’m the light of the world, run away
We can feel, this is real
Every time I’m in love that I feel

Life's like that

2009-10-26T13:36:00.002+08:00

All the students has been busy practising for their year end concert and this year the theme of the concert is Michael Jackson since after their final exam 2 weeks ago. All the academic teachers who's not involve in teaching and not involve in teaching them how to sing/dance/violin/piano, etc are busy making sure that they are on time for their practice and also in change for their costume.

Today half of my students are busy for the deepaRaya celebration later in the hall where the founder of the school will be around. It has been a really "heavy" year for me. Much changing, much learning.. much sickness.. much challenging as well... and also it has almost come to an end to me because no more academic teaching. follow next will be their report card day and their concert day.. and then will be one more week left before the end of the school term. their final year breaks starts on the 21st Nov this year. However, the teachers will be only off in December because we all need to attend 1 week IT training.

much to update later..

tick tock tick tock

2009-09-29T08:30:00.002+08:00

Its been a while.... my 2009 seems ending soon... guess it is the nature of the job.. that things seems to be planned earlier of the year and else we just have to follow the plan & execute the plans for the rest of the year.. many has happen this year and much to update... of course one of the biggest success this year is finally gotten myself a scuba diving licence. which is i am very proud of it... never ever imagine i could ever make it. of couse the second biggest thing that i am very happy with is.. I finally got myself confirmed as a full time Mandarine teachers... that one & only subjects that I want to teach.
the third thing that i am also very happy with is that we are finally moving out to our own place... found our "dream" house. found a place where we can call "our very own"... of course it will still take a bit time until we physically moved out but again.. i am happy and thankful enough.
of course it was not all that blissful... but starting my day by being thankful will be good enough for me to kick start a good day... so for today... i want to thank those who are reading my blog now... i want to thank those who love me... i want to thank those to manipulate me..and i want to thank those i love... thank you and have a good day!

梅艷芳 - 下輩子別再做女人

2009-09-21T17:24:00.000+08:00

lazy or nothing to update?

2009-08-29T10:31:00.002+08:00

i wonder if i am lazy or i really have nothing to update about my life.. life has been mundane? not really ... i still find life interesting and i still learn everyday... maybe i've been learning old things and making the same old mistake i've been making.. Took up diving earlier this week.. which was interesting.. husband since busy to get me my own scuba gear...

hv not been reading much papers lately... no one has seems to get over the election in 2008.. wonder if it will continue until the next elections..

hv been mourning for family who lost their family and friends from the Taiwan typhoon.

I was off for almost 3 weeks.... 2 H1N1 cases school decided to close classes from reception to std 5, keeping the standard 6 to prepare for their UPSR.

We all know the value of bad news.... where everyone get to sell their paper... but this year.. is a year when i don't want to read paper anymore... when reading can bring you tears.. y bothered? too much sad news and i've decided to give myself a break..

the missing me

2009-07-27T13:19:00.002+08:00

started teaching believing that this is where i wanted to be... 7 months has passed and i realised that it has been my attitude is the problem because i already feel like leaving.... obviously it is not the job description.. it is me... however.. still believing that i enjoy teaching the most.. life has been in a routine.. for as long as i can remember... weeks and days seems shorter since i started teaching.. before i realise.. it is already noon now... and very soon, I won't even realise that it is already Friday.. nothing much to look forward this year... just hope that i can get a good results in my exam end of this year.. as for other things that I've been looking forward will be pregnant soon and to move to a new house.. however.. I've been thinking about that since last year.. therefore.... losing the excitement... but nope.. not losing my hope..

was browsing jobstreet yesterday, feeling one part of me losing because i won't be going back to the PR, marketing and corporate comm job scope... no where else seems to suits me better than this teaching job.. sometimes i wonder i can do more than this.. i hate it when things get too routine.. it feels dead.. but when i look at everyone else.. who is not doing the routine.. in routine.. you try to look for the excited only when i try harder looking into the details.. that yes.. everyday something is different... but sometimes when i try to look so hard into details.. i develop GAD.. i get anxiety... but i guess that's life... it is only when i look back... 1 week ago.. 1 month ago... 1 year ago... even 10 years ago... then i tell myself.. that's life... life is to live with no regret.. because it is the past that mould the me today... why regret when i am the one.. and have always been the one deciding that i want in life... at least, i make my own choice.. at least, it was my decision.. and choose it.. and there should not be any regrets.. even tho sometimes.. it also based on the circumstances in my life.. like sometimes.. someone decide for you... but again.. it is my decision on how i want to deal with it.. so life... i am looking forward for mroe.. :)

郭靜 - 在樹上唱歌

2009-07-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

別愛我-鄭中基

2009-07-14T11:13:00.001+08:00

送给昨晚梦见的你。。

作曲:薛忠銘, 編曲:涂惠源
填詞:施人誠

這座城是片繁華沙漠　只適合盛開妖豔霓虹
悲傷的人們滿街遊走　打聽幸福的下落
愛情都只是傳說　難開花難結果

你眼神裡的訊息我懂　像隨時準備燎原的火
那危險的美我曾見過　也因此留下了傷口
愛情依然是傳說　就別再觸碰　我荒涼心中還在痛的角落

別愛我　如果只是寂寞　如果不會很久　如果沒有停泊的把握
別愛我　不要給我藉口　不要讓我軟弱　別再把我推向海市蜃樓

Its has been a while...

2009-07-12T11:09:00.002+08:00

It has been awhile, since i last blog..life has been busy i guess? or I've nothing new to post... everyday when something new happen.. it does cross my mind of blogging it.. however, when i finally get home and rest.. i see all the lazy bugs.. life has been ok i guess.. quite settle in the new working enviroment.. however, the stress level are rising daily.. stress of not teaching the wrong thing, saying the wrong thing... stress of failing to control my temper.. sometimes it does drive you up the wall... but so far.. still manage to keep my hand free from touching them... but yes.. i am killing myself from raising my voice.. so.. here is to tell myself... from today on wards... you give your best... and all your very best.. that will be enough... :)

tribute to MJ... deeply missed..

2009-07-09T00:03:00.001+08:00

"Gone Too Soon"

Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon

Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon

Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon

Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon

Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon

Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon

Gone Too Soon

missing you badly Micheal..

2009-06-28T21:11:00.001+08:00

Michael Joseph Jackson... Rest In Peace

2009-06-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

To the King of Pop, I will miss you always.. can't believe you just leave like that.. i was looking forward to hear news on your up coming concert.. how i wish this is just a joke..

Times of you life - 王若琳

2009-06-10T11:16:00.003+08:00

Times of you life - 王若琳
Good morning, yesterday
You wake up and time has slipped away
And suddenly it's hard to find
The memories you left behind
Remember, do you remember

The laughter and the tears
The shadows of misty yesteryears
The good times and the bad you've seen
And all the others in between
Remember, do you remember
The times of your life (do you remember)

Reach back for the joy and the sorrow
Put them away in your mind
The mem'ries are time that you borrow
To spend when you get to tomorrow

Here comes the saddest part (comes the saddest part)(setting sun)
The seasons are passing one by one
So gather moments while you may
Collect the dreams you dream today
Remember, will you remember
The times of your life

Gather moments while you may
Collect the dreams you dream today
Remember, will you remember
The times of your life
Of your life
Of your life

Do you remember, baby
Do you remember the times of your life
Do you remember, baby
Do you remember the times of your life

A great song originally sang by Paul Anka

This song reminds me the importance of remembering moments... slow down and look back.. pause and enjoy this second... suddenly.. you are 18... suddenly 21... suddenly now 26...

Suprisingly good Singer －谭晶

2009-06-08T14:30:00.002+08:00

此曲为第六届城市运动会(在武汉举行)&第八届中国艺术节（在湖北举行，武汉为主会场）主题曲.

她从画中来，彩云丹顶鹤。
明月吹玉笛，紫气相引约。
何来空悠悠，古今无已楚天秀。
千杯恩，十年舞，此去漫天游。
情悠悠，黄鹤楼，黄鹤楼，情悠悠。
千年盼归，万古绝唱黄鹤楼。
千年盼归，万古绝唱黄鹤楼

乔家大院

2009-06-06T23:03:00.006+08:00

乔家大院主题曲远情

沉冤不断，
看人间路长，
不能够容我细思量。
繁华瞬间，
如梦幻一场，
世上人有几番空忙。
春去秋来，
看世事沧桑，
算人生成败相当。
登临愿望，
看山水迷茫，
情通天下一路奔放。
几翻起落雨暴风狂，
转眼见鬓已成霜。
留住所爱，
留住所想，
留住一梦相伴日月长。
几翻起落雨暴风狂，
转眼间鬓已成霜。
留住所爱，
留住所想，
留住一梦相伴日月长

busy watching this tv series known as 乔家大院 (qiao jia da yuan), which was apprently quite a famous series back in 2006. Both the main cast got married after filming this series and later blessed with a son in 2007. very good series, a must to watch!

Otak-otak place@ One Utama

2009-06-01T14:46:00.003+08:00

Had dinner at Otak-Otak place @ one utama last night. Food was good and i particular like the deco & concept of this restaurant. must try their steam otak otak.. i had the hainanese Chilcken Rice and H had Nasi Lemak. Before we left, we tapao 10 stick of otak otak home. :)

写一首歌-顺子

2009-05-25T15:14:00.001+08:00

月亮在你的眼睛太阳在我心
现在我唱这首歌 OHH 只为你
想把所有烦恼都忘掉做不做的到
你明白我心在燃烧因为你因为你 OHH 为你
你心中的话我全都想听能不能相信
所有的梦里全都是你会不会停息
和你一起是否不会再放弃你的心里有没有秘密
我分不清不要在意只想为想为你写一首歌
写一首歌都是你 OHH
月亮在你的眼睛太阳在我心
现在我唱这首歌 OHH 只为你
想把所有烦恼都忘掉做不做的到
你明白我心在燃烧因为你因为你为你为你 OHH
OH,LOVE'S IN THE AIR
IT'S EVERYWHERE
EVERYONE CAN SEE
EVERYONE CAN FEEL
THAT LOVE'S IN THE AIR
IT DOESM'T MATTER WHERE
EVERYONE AGREE
LOVE IS ALL WE NEED
WHEN THE MOON FALLS IN YOUR EYES
I KNOW THE SUN HAS SET
THE FIRE STILL BURNS WITHIN ME
SINCE THE DAY WE MET
I KNOW MY HEAVEN WOULD BE SO COMPLETE
YOU COULD MAKE IT REAL
I WON'T LET THIS CHANCE GO BY
I CAN SEE,I CAN FEEL YOU
WHAN THE MOON FALLS IN YOUR EYES
I KNOW THE SUN HAS SET
THE FIRE STILL BURNS WITHIN ME,WITHIN ME
月亮在你的眼睛太阳在我心
现在我唱这首歌只为你

dedicated to my mother..

2009-05-06T13:54:00.002+08:00

妈妈歌词

吴建豪 - 妈妈
作词：崔惟楷/Jeffrey Kung作曲：Jae Chong/Jeffrey Kung

那年还没长大　
常常让你牵挂
是我不好你担心了吧
懵懂很不听话　
也曾顶嘴吵架
我的脾气你没办法
你一个人沉默撑着家
任岁月在你额头刻划
你说爱是唯一的解答
那皱纹是代价
斑白的发是惩罚
妈妈辛苦为家
你别再让泪流下
我会照顾这个家
亲爱的妈妈
休息你辛苦了
没想过天会塌　
总要你等一下
有谁多晚都等我回家
伤了你的气话　
无意说的谎话
你都微笑说　算了吧
我知道你累　
现在换我来背
我一定不让你后悔
我让未来很美　
亲爱的妈妈
请别再流下眼泪
你真是辛苦了
妈妈　妈妈
你不用哭了
妈妈　妈妈
不要再哭了
I was driving on my way to school this morning and heard this song playing on the radio, suddenly feels like crying.. probably is the time of the month.. :)
thinking of my mother... actually... I've never open my mouth to say i love her... even i really do.. so much... but i don't grow up saying it.. not even once... and same.. my parents have never open their mouth and say that they love me... even though i know... they love me.. alot.. and worry about me alot..

was also thinking about today's mother and our mother.. i somehow feels that our mother seems live a harder life to support us comparing to the mothers today... (it is just my perception), children today are like parents' "TOY", "trophy"
TOY - because their children are their entertainment... well.. they only play with the kids, all the taking care work, cooking, guiding are the maid's or kakak's or nanny's job, so... the parents' job, to play with with them... or watch them playing.. but they have missed out the most important "task" as a parents.. which if to give them time.... give them love (money is not love), give them care... cook them food, send them to school, guide them in their homework, guide them from home., tuck them into bed, even as simple at bathing them when they are young.... my mother did all that... (maybe not tucking me to bed, but ya... my father used to sing alot of songs with us using his guitar before we go to bed)

Trophy - well.. their children are their trophy, send them to 300 tuition a week on top of what they are doing in the school, swimming, ballet, mandarin, English, violin, IT, anything you can think of, you find parents send their child to all kinds of activities... i am not saying that there activities are bad... but i don't think they can find the balance between it... so during all the mother's gathering you find them comparing their child among their finds.. and some even comparing their children among the siblings.. how cruel is that.. all child is unique.. there's no need to compare.. they are unique in their very own way... so.. a child ended up become their parents' trophy probably for what they are trying to make their child become.. will represent the STATUS of the parents... (for example, sending them to expensive schools? have ONE driver to fetch ONE child, or even, sending them to learn violin from XXX school), the "face" issue it is.. (as a gentle reminder, your children are growing everyday, tomorrow he/she will be 18,if you missed their childhood, you missed))

somehow, our mother were different..discussing about this issue, there will be some mother saying, excuse me, i am a full time mother + housewife, i spend all the time at home with my child, taking care of them... but then again, you have KAKAK with you ok, even without kakak, life seems more manageable now... how our mother can take care of 3, without a maid, without a washing machine, etc? mother's today have all the convenient of technology, maids, to help them in raising their kids, i don't remember this but my mother used to place me and my 2 sisters each in a pail in the kitchen, cooking and monitoring us as the same time. and.. she can even go to the market, with 3 of us at home...

well... i think i am still not qualified to judge any person as i am not a mother myself, but based on my observation as a school teacher, as daughter, as an aunt, as a friend, i must say... it is a tough job... and to all the mothers, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY... and speacilly to my mother, I ...i....i.....i.... love.. u..

update: HFMD / Throat infection

2009-05-03T19:24:00.004+08:00

All the blister are drying off...some spots just started but yes... all drying off.. the Internet says that it will take 7-10 days for complete healing... so.. i am not worry.. should i or should i not go to school tomorrow.. i don't want to give the school the impression that i am lazy with many excuses... i just had my operation and already took 2 days off.... and last week... took another 2 days... and it is a new week tomorrow... should i go? or not go?...I'm going to check with my company panel doctor later... so if he says yes.. i will go.... :)

Thanks to my lovely mother.. whose not afraid of us.... been bz cooking food for us.... if not we'll just have to survive with McDonald... and frequent ta pao...

of course... the happiest if probably our dog.. coz we've spend all our time at home for the past few days with her... hope it won't to tough for her next week when she needs to go back to her cage when we are away....

Hand Foot & Mouth disease(HFMD) / throat infection!

2009-05-02T19:56:00.009+08:00

Finally... all the blister is drying off... i was in so much pain on Thursday night... like stepping on fire kinda pain... prior to the night... it was less pain.. but i couldn't sleep either... whole body was so itchy because of the psoriasis i already have on my body...... blister on my hand are subsiding.. but all the psoriasis spot are bloody red.. even it is not so itchy anymore.. but it definitely looks scary.... I've many bloody spots on my body.. some are blister which yet to dry... which quite painful... luckily hand are not giving me much problem... and i can finally walk... compare to yesterday... i could barely.. even wearing socks...

thanks to my loving mother's home cook food.. my thoughtful mother actually took the trouble to prepare out lunch and dinner yesterday and prepare other raw materials for us to cook today.. wouldn't have recover so soon without her food..

I still don't find any news reporting this Hand foot & mouth disease as I've heard cases happening in PJ and Cheras Sg. Long.. but still i dun read any similaw news on line at all... even tho i am pretty sure that it is.. but my doc kept telling me that the chances that i can get it is VERY low because it normally don't affect people my age... but it is neither chikukunya.. he said.. all he can think of is a bad throat infection that causese it.. .. so taking his advise also being very very careful.. i've lock-up myself at home since wed noon after i saw him... don't want anyone to get it.. it is already very painful for an adult to get it... imgaine a child... don't want to risk it at all...

For those who had chicken pox before.. don't worry... you already had the worst... touch wood i never kena chicken pox but i heard it was much worst.. .and like chicken pox... once u get ths HFMD, it is very hard to get it back.. but again.. it doesn't mean that you will ever gonna get it... and for those who have yet to chicken pox... go get a injection so that you get immune to it... i've got myself that jab early last year...

Throat Infection? chikukunya? or hand foot & mouth disease?

2009-05-01T11:10:00.002+08:00

Maya

2009-04-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

Been busy with this..

suprise！

2009-04-16T08:23:00.002+08:00

my beloved darling surprise me yesterday after my gym session @ the curve, he bought this very cute little toy poodle.... one breed that we have been looking for some time but can never seems to find the correct one until last night. we are only bringing the dog back on Saturday because it is not recommended to bring dogs home at night as changing new environment can be stressful and the dog might whine alot at night. so Saturday will be a good time as we can have enough time to dog proof our house and let the dog settle as we will be in the house... so looking forward.. :) and yes.. we already got a name for the dog... we are going to call her Maya.

hmmm...

2009-04-14T13:57:00.003+08:00

I was monitoring 2 kids this morning who can't take part in the sports day preparation this morning.. so.. to break the ice.. i asked

me: 你住在那里？
student： I don't understand Mandarin
me: where do you stay?
student: I stay next to my grandmother
me: where does your grandmother stays?
student: next to my parent's house..
me: ........

and this one.. forever friends...

2009-04-12T14:49:00.000+08:00

I am still feeling Olympic - You & Me

2009-04-12T14:38:00.001+08:00

STOP GETTING FATTER!

2009-04-08T16:25:00.001+08:00

had this really bad food poison yesterday... i have actually forgotten how good it feels to have everything puke out for once... now look at food also feel like vomiting..

SPM Ulangan 2009

2009-03-31T16:14:00.002+08:00

For those who wants to re-sit their SPM paper(SPM Ulanagan) 2009, to deadline is this coming Friday(3rd April 2009) , please call Jabatan Pelajaran WP Kuala Lumpur @ 03 6203 7777 or their website http://www.jpwpkl.gov.my/ for more information.

Goverment School vs Private School

2009-03-28T22:40:00.009+08:00

I've been with a government Chinese primary school for total of 8 months, and then now with private school.... for parents who are considering sending their kids of private or government school, hope this helps...

lets just look at the pros of a government Chinese school

There are many experienced teachers are committed to teach
Children are breathing, eating and living in the Chinese speaking environment, and there have no other options for not learning Chinese
only English and Malay classes are not conducted in Mandarin
Children mix with a more balance environment. (no that many spoil kids)
Children learn good manners at younger age (they know what we call respect the elder)
most importantly, we have Chinese who are learning Chinese, are hopefully proud to be Chinese compare to some Chinese kids who tells me that they hate Chinese, well... then who are they? Chinese-who-don't-know-Chinese-and -being-proud-of-not-knowing-Chinese? ish!
children spend lesser time in the school... normally only half a day

cons of studying in Government school,

well.. you have 49 classmate every year
teacher spent most of the time trying to ask everyone to keep quite instead of having proper lesson
lessons are shorter
and if you are slow in the class, you will have to look for private tutor because the school teacher really don't have enough time to spare for you.. (as much as they want to, but they are really busy)
you spent half a day in the school, and the other half day wondering around if your parents don't send you for tuition
your teacher might don't even know what they are teaching in the class, (you have untrained teacher teaching sports, and teacher who don't know music teaching music classes)

Pros of private school

we have only 25 students max in a class
and each teacher have 10 students who they need to monitor through the year whether is it academic or else
they learn more intense courses, for example, they are more advanced in learning English and maths but learning mandarin is the least important in the class...(i am a mandarin teacher in this private school, as much as i want to teach them, it takes a long time for them to absorb)
they have more meaningful activities such as swimming class, speech and drama, gym, fencing, chess, and instruments which you don't find it in the government school
they have trained teacher who focus in teaching one subjects, and
teachers are actually teaching because if they don't perform, they are risking losing their job.
you don't have to greet the teacher because your parents are paying the school fees (yes, i am being sarcastic)
you can expect good results from your children, as most international school/private school will make sure 100% of their students pass all their subjects (of course exclude mandarin)
based on my observation, they are much more mature, they most of them play more mature board games, read more books, go overseas more often, and many of their parents are divorce... in general, they are expose to more information they should at their age and most of their parents can give them with more whether it is tuitions, study materials, higher quality lifestyles etc..

cons of a private school

if you are a Chinese and hoping that your children can speak or learn some Chinese from this school, sadly even they have Chinese classes, but won't be able to learn more as learning Chinese in this school is not the priority and even if they learn, they will have pressure speaking because no one seems to speak any mandarin, and the more they don't speak, the more they find if pointless to learn or even speak..
be ready to have really spoil kids...you might say that they are not but they learn from their friends..
your kids might come back demand for branded bags, go to japan for holiday and Disney land for next holiday..
more money minded.. they want rewards for everything they do... like.. if i get 100% in my English, what are you going to give me.. (excuse me, you might think that it is OK because life's like that.. you work hard, you reward them, NO, it is their job to work hard and do their best in their studies.., they study hard, and their reward is good results, not a trip to Disney land)
they don't learn important values like respecting school teachers... (i was on duty that day, stood at the back door sending the children off, i stood there for 40 minutes and only ONE students says "good bye teacher"...
they also miss out being a child, all their life the moment they enter school... they are being teach and trained like an adult, they get stress from school and exam as young as you can imagine..
These children are harder to please.. and because of that, they don't learn values of enjoying more simple things in life..
and because they are harder to please, at young age(or as they grow), they might seek more exciting things to do as soon as they are given the permission(or even without permission).

To summarize this, it all depends on what you want for your child, and how your child being brought up, are they being brought up like an adult, (like you don't do all the baby talk with them even when they are a baby) you talked to them like a grown up most of the time, you expect them to hold glasses t o drink water when they are 5 years old or even younger or you think they are like babies and even when they are 7 years old you think they are not able to carry their own bags to school... it also depends what you want them to achieve in their life, you want them to be a very academic person, or be a more sociable person? Do you want them to learn mandarin? or you think learning mandarin is really not that important.. you have grown up without them, y not your own child? here are some suggestions...

if your child tends to speak to you like an adult, then sending them to government school can be stressful to them because not all children there watch Nickelodeon, or Disney channel... and they don't know how to play "hang man"
if your child are not grown up in "rich" environment, like traveling to Japan or London over the school holiday, or have expensive school bags, then sending them to a private school at can be stressful for them... but for younger kids is OK, because they don't do that much comparing compare to the older ones..
if you think your child is quite bright in their study, then consider sending them to private school because they can spend their time learning more in school ... i believe they can achieve more..
if you want to send your child to a government Chinese school because you want them to learn mandarin but you can't speak mandarin, then please, get them a tutor... because your child pressure is not just not able to learn mandarin, and other subjects in the school, they can't even converse in mandarin with their teacher... and their friends... and that... can be depressing for a child...

you need to be wealthy enough to send your child to a private school... because the school fees can be very high.. and you need to spare enough money just in case the school decides to increase their school fees every 2 years.. their schools fees can come up to 15k a year depending on which private school you send them to.. and once you have send to a private school... getting them out from it is not easy... changing environment for children can be very stressful because they need to learn new learning methods, new friends and new environment...

I propose(this is just based on my personal reason, because i think that it is very important for a Chinese to learn Mandarin and learn values of life, that life is not all about having lots of money, etc) , send your child to a (Chinese) government primary school ... then when if comes to secondary... if you can afford it, send them to a private school...i believed...that this will give them a more balanced learning experiences... as they only have that few years in primary and few years in secondary, why not give them a more balance blend of both?

for Mom to Ashley

2009-03-24T21:07:00.002+08:00

Give me a day or 2, i will draw the differences for u.

of all things.. another surgery (super minor one)

2009-03-24T19:21:00.004+08:00

I was having this bleeding for 1 week (continuous spotting) after 4 days of period.. reading from the Internet before i consult my doctor, i was pretty excited because i thought it was like what the call the implantation spotting..(aka, i though i was pregnant) however.. i ended with this thing call Endometrial Polyp..which it says that it has no definitive cause but it appear to be affected by hormone levels and grow in response to circulating estrogen... and it has to be surgically (using curettage or hysterescopy) removed as it might affect my pregnancy. so... will hv to do it next month..

Slipping through my fingers

2009-03-19T14:33:00.000+08:00

歌词：Mamma Mia!-Meryl Streep & Amanda Seyfried - Slipping Through My Fingers

Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile
I watch her go with a surge of that well-known sadness
And I have to sit down for a while
The feeling that I'm losing her forever
And without really entering her world
I'm glad whenever I can share her laughter
That funny little girl
Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see what's in her mind
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Sleep in our eyes,
her and me at the breakfast table
Barely awake, I let precious time go by
Then when she's gone there's that odd melancholy feeling
And a sense of guilt I can't deny
What happened to the wonderful adventures
The places I had planned for us to go
(Slipping through my fingers all the time)
Well, some of that we did but most we didn't and why i just don't know
Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see what's in her mind
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers
Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile

on holiday

2009-03-19T13:47:00.002+08:00

this is a job or some people call it a profession that you are not quite allow to take MC (medical certificate)... simply because every time you take MC... you'll waste at least 50 person's 1 hour in their day... or on some days.. up to 100 students' 1 hour. which you simply not allow to do so... so.. no matter how sick or unwell i get.. i will drag myself to the school... because you just can't afford to waste so many students time and you also don't want other teachers cursing you because they will have to use their one and only spare time to replace your classes.

and of course... no annual leave.. you annual leave will be when the school is off for school holiday... and you off days will be when most of other people are having their off days to bring their children for holiday... and if you decide to go outstation for holiday, you will have to pay for the "peak season" prices because it will be school holiday!

however, compare to other 9-5 execs, we probably have the benefits of longer holidays.... like for every 1 month plus you work you will get a one week holiday and another 2 months from now we'll get another 2 weeks off... but all these off days are not really good time to travel...

王若琳 Times of your life

2009-03-14T03:31:00.006+08:00

Good morning, yesterday

you wake up and time has slipped away

and suddenly its hard to find

the memories you left behind

remember, do you remember?

the laughter and the tears

the shadows of misty yesteryears

The good times and the bad you've seen

and all the others in between

remember, do you remember

the times of your life? (do you remember?)

reach out for the joy and the sorrow

put them away in your mind

the memories are time that you borrow

to spend when you get to tomorrow

here comes the saddest part

(comes the saddest part)

the seasons are passing one by one

so gather moments while you may

collect the dreams you dream today

remember, will you remember

the times of your life?

gather moments while you may

collect the dreams you dream today

remember, will you remember

the times of your life?

of your life

do you remember, baby

do you remember the times of your life?

Of your life

do you remember, baby

do you remember the times of your life?

in Pain

2009-03-11T19:45:00.001+08:00

so pain... so scare...

back on track

2009-03-08T21:44:00.003+08:00

Haven actually have time to do any blogging since i started my new job in early January.. the most exciting and interesting part is... I've just changed to another job... not really consider changing job... but from teaching the government school.. i am now teaching in one of the prestigious private school in malaysia. job wise... 120% different goverment school... will draw down the difference soon when i have my time..

Retrench?

2009-02-22T04:19:00.001+08:00

started teaching early this year... enjoy almost every minute... after close to 2 months of teaching, i was informed that by end of February, i will have to STOP... as the Government didn't approve my GSTT (Guru Sandaran Tidak Terlatih) as i didn't have a credit in Mandarin in SPM.. but i am teaching standard one Malay.. ... It was like one of the worst thing that can happen to me.. at that point.. i gave my 100% in class everyday... for a while.. it feels like as if it is the end of the world to me... it was hard to accept.. i felt so.. REJECTED... so.. i went home that very day.. cried it all out that day... and then.. move on... went home.. googled all possible international school in Malaysia that might employ me... following with a few phone calls.. and manage to scheduled an interview coming Tuesday... preparing hard for it.. hope for the best.. and prepare for the worst... I've learnt that in life, you just have to give your best... opportunity might only come once... grab it.. or lose it.. but.. also prepare for the worst... for the worst that can happen.. you just don't get the job.. it is not the end of the world.. for what is most important to you.. you have to value yourself.. no one else should determine how you should feel about anything.. you determine if you want to be a happy person today.. or an angry person.. or a frustrated person.. you tell yourself.. what you want.. i know times are bad.. you give your best.. in what ever you do.. and prepare for the worst... for what the worst can happen, it might just not be THAT BIG DEAL....

愛妳！愛妳- 黄品源

2009-02-22T04:13:00.003+08:00

作詞：余哲涵　

作曲：余哲涵　

編曲：呂聖斐

控制不了自己

我靜靜又怪怪的脾氣

妳怕怕怕怕怕了沒

I AM GOING CRAZY

發生什麼問題

我們必須冷靜想了仔細

我不會放棄

愛妳愛妳愛妳我依然愛妳

卻不會放棄放棄不放棄跟妳在一起

我會永遠愛妳只要妳不會離去

哦~ 我愛你控控控控控控制不了自己

我靜靜又怪怪的脾氣

妳怕怕怕怕怕了沒

I AM GOING CRAZY

發生什麼問題

我們必須冷靜想了仔細

我不會放棄愛妳愛妳愛妳我依然愛妳

卻不會放棄放棄不放棄跟妳在一起

我會永遠愛妳

只要妳不會離去

妳要我做什麼都可以

愛妳愛妳愛妳我依然愛妳

卻不會放棄放棄不放棄跟妳在一起

我會永遠愛妳

只要妳不會離去

哦~ 我愛妳

我的愛存在在每個地方

想找妳全身的太陽

擋不住躲不了也無法隱藏

I AM GOING CRAZY

只要妳願意和我一起分享

我相信我們可以

永遠永遠永遠在一起

愛妳愛妳愛妳我依然愛妳

卻不會放棄放棄不放棄跟妳在一起

我會永遠愛妳

只要妳不會離去

妳要我做什麼都可以

愛妳愛妳愛妳我依然愛妳

卻不會放棄放棄不放棄跟妳在一起

我會永遠愛妳

只要妳不會離去

哦~ 我愛妳 (愛你愛你愛你喔~~) 我愛你~~

(放棄放棄不放棄永遠在一起)　

(愛你愛你愛你) 耶~~ (嗚~~) 我愛你

遇见天使－何禹萱

2009-02-08T20:26:00.001+08:00

你是天使

你真的会飞翔

风带着你飘荡

在巨大的玫瑰花瓣上

你是天使

你真的有翅膀

从天而降

盘旋我的心房

在我耳边低声吟唱

我认出了你的模样

那是我今生的渴望

在天地间寻觅

跌跌撞撞

想抓住你所有的幻想

你说要把我放在心上

永远守护着我的天堂

陪着我到任何的地方

you are my angel

you are my fantasy

怎么是现在才遇到你

在茫茫人海里

you are my angel

you are my fantasy

随着你飞翔

朝着幸福的方向

随着你飞翔让你守候的天堂

something missing

2009-01-30T10:18:00.005+08:00

I am not sure if you notice, there's something missing this Chinese new year. same reunion dinners, same people, in fact, there are even addition family members.. (sis in law & bro in-law to be), but what's the missing? i just don't feel right.. i use to play new year songs 2 months before the new year, and start decorating the house more than 1 month ahead.. but this year... i bought the new year song, but i hardly even play them.. and i only start decorating the house, on the night b4 new year... I am missing something... could it be the recession? i doubt so even everyone say the same thing, we're still doing the same thing as we do for the past few years.. the same travelling every year to parents' hometown at Malacca, in fact, we choose to stay 2 nights there this time just to feel the "crowd" in a smaller town, to feel the new year . but yet.. still feel like missing something... i didn't even dress up for visiting, just bought a few new shirts, but wearing the same old pants and super old shoes.. coz i just don't feel like dressing up or buying more things.. .i use to cut my hair for new year.. but i didn't even bother this time.. even tho my hair really need a good trim.. but i just procrastinate and tell everyone that i will do it after cny... it can't be that i just grew up over night and realise that i do not want any new shoes this year.. I miss those laughter.... like really load laughter.. i don't even find much from myself this year.. i miss those faces that use to concern and care.. but everyone seems to be more moody this time around... having said all that, this year.. for the very first time, on the fifth day of CNY, i am going to watch a CNY movie with my mother..which i am sure i will pretty enjoy it.. and something and one of the very few things I'm looking forward to... is to have a good laugh in the cinema...

PS: i even have this super red background for new year last year for my blog until my fren complaint that it is so RED!!!

I miss blogging

2009-01-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

Sorry guys.....firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR! I am sorry that i've been MIA for a while.. i've been busy in school.. and yes.. i've started teaching in school.... i've lots to share and tell... please be patient.. I'll update more once i've the opportunity.. hopefully this weekend..

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T20:00:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas.. & Happy Holiday!

Psoriasis - Exorex Moisturising Cream & Exorex Lotion

2008-12-24T19:10:00.006+08:00

Don't be scare by this pair of leg with Psoriasis, I've been living with this since 6 years old and i am 25 years old now. it was once almost 80% of my while body... and finally. it was clear for a while, when i was in university..when i was regularly putting on medication and gym every alternate day.. however, after my wedding last year.. i have slowly stop going to gym.. and soon.. i hardly go to gym...and since then, psoriasis and fats has been growing all around my body... more and more each day.. the more stress i have.. the more the psoriasis go.. however... about 2 months ago.. I've started using Exorex Moisturising cream and Exorex lotion for my Psoriasis... here are the progress.. (meantime.. I've been quite regularly in gym lately)

This is just when i started before i start using Exorex..

this is while recovering..

getting better.. :)

and now.. could hardly see it..

Thanks to Exorex.... :) btw...i am not doing any advertising here.. just for those have this skin disorder.. Exorex content Coal Tar which help very much in Psoriasis.. and very importantly.. exercise.. sweat alot, and stay happy, and positive.. this is probably the one and only key to have healthy skin..

I Want To Thank God for..

2008-12-06T17:47:00.002+08:00

Thank God, for that you love me so much, Thank God, for the the blessing to my family & friends.. , Thank God, for giving precious moments spent with both my parents last night, i really miss having my parents around me...and i really do.. appreciate, EVERY moment spent with them.. Thank God, for i can do line dancing with my mother every weekend, and today, i have my second sister with us too... Thank God for the most lovely husband that you gave me, please bless his trip and please bring him safely back to me.. Thank God for the guidance, for who i am today... Thank God for teaching me to learn to appreciate every moments i have..

BLT = Butt, Leg & Tummy

2008-12-05T04:13:00.002+08:00

yesterday i went to fitness first, tried this BLT class.. half way thru the class, i gave up, at the end of the class, i was half dead! and today, both my legs are dead..CRAMP CRAMP CRAMP! walked like a crap ok!!!!! up and down staircase half jumping, half crawling.. but u know what.. i am going for more tomorrow... the more the pain, the more i "think" i've work on! at i found a fren can do with me tmr
excited.. i am thinking of.. doing "STEP" tomorrow.. i mean.. i will TRY to do step tmr.. :)

Can't Smile Without You

2008-11-30T17:16:00.002+08:00

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh, and I can't sleep
I don't even talk to people I meet
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

You came along just like a song
You brightened my day
Who'd believe you were part of a dream
That only seemed light years away

And you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

Some people say the happiness wave
Is somethin' that's hard to find
Into the new leavin' the old behind me
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

Into the new, leaving the old behind me
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

You must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

probably having the best time of my life..

2008-11-29T20:32:00.003+08:00

I don't think i am deserve this.. but i am.. having the best time of my life now.. i practically get to do whatever i feel like.. go where ever i want to.. and i really can't be thankful enough... and the best thing of all... CHINESE NEW YEAR is coming... :) i don't normally enjoying cny as much as the "waiting" for the CNY... i enjoy much just preparing for cny.... :)

Generalized Anxiety Disorder

2008-11-26T16:48:00.003+08:00

I just recently realize that I've this Generalized Anxiety Disorder(GAD), i always thought that it is normal to worry about things.. until my husband think that i have this issue. for example.. since very young, i can never sleep, until everyone is back at home.. my dad use to come home late.. like 1am or 2am... sometimes even later.. and i will wait.. until i hear my dad open the house.. then only i can go to bed.. no matter how early is my class..i can never sleep.. until everyone is home safely.. and when i was even younger.. this incident happen when i my mother fetch my dad to airport.. and left me and my second sister at home.. with tv on.. after a few minutes( i assume a while) my sister turn on the tv.. i couldn't help it but to turn off her tv.. then started screaming and crying at the main door.. i don't know why but i was just so worry that my mother will not come back... first day of my primary school.. my mother went with me.. then later after she settle me in the class.. she told me that she is going to the school office to pay for fees and buy books... and i watch her walk into the office.. after a while.. i started crying in the class... i remember this vividly.. because i was so worry... i remember the teacher tried to comfort me that my mother is returning to me shortly.. but i couldn't stop until i see my mother..

those are the incidents when i was young.. today.. after i am married.. i am sure it has improve.. that i don't cry anymore.. just that the worries kept inside me that it is sometimes i find it difficult to breath.. example.. i will call my parents.. my sisters.. my husband... make sure that they are all right.. all the time.. sometimes i can call my mother like 3 times or more a day... just to check if she is ok.. or sometimes late night.. (sometimes mid night) i will call my sister.. just to make sure both our dogs are ok.. or.. on my way back home.. if i hear any ambulance..or any siren.. i will actually have the urge to call home.. just to make sure that it is not our house on fire...

i am writing this.. thinking how things have improve.. that now.. i tried to occupied myself with books.. i find really books really encourage me to be a more positive person.. and my family members has been a great support.. and yes.. . i am not weired... this is what they call GENERALIZED ANXIETY DISORDER...

Dream a little dream - The Papas & The Mamas

2008-11-20T00:35:00.000+08:00

Stars shining bright above you
night breezes seem to whisper

I love you
Birds singin' in the sycamore tree

Dream a little dream of me.
Say "nighty night" and kiss me

just hold me tight and tell me

you'll miss me.
While I'm alone and blue as can be

Dream a little dream of me.

Stars fading
but I linger on
dear

still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger til dawn
dear

Just saying this:

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you

sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams
whatever they be

dream a little dream of me.

Stars fading
but I linger on
dear

still craving your kiss.
I'm longing to linger til dawn
dear

just saying this:

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you

sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams
whatever they be

dream a little dream of me.

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you

sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams
whatever they be

dream a little dream of me.

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you

sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams
whatever they be

dream a little dream of me.

The Most Beautiful

2008-11-17T17:26:00.012+08:00

It was an existing weekend... we drove down to Singapore to attend this very special wedding.. almost perfect... and it is the most perfect one that I've ever been... the perfect bride & groom, perfect pictures, perfect hotel, perfect flower arrangement, perfect arrangement.. it is the most beautiful wedding that I've ever been.... we arrived late in the morning.. and was felt in love with the flower arrangement... like those wedding we always see in the bridal magazine.. i am more than happy to be withness this wedding.. the first wedding i attend in singapore..

it was all over the house... and it was just.. beautiful...

and the wedding dinner was just perfect... held in one of the best hotel in Singapore, St. Regis. prior to the dinner, the cocktail.. was really nice.. classic.. and traditional....with beautiful grand piano playing the Chinese music, they place their wedding pictures by Ant & Evy placed around the cocktail area.. honestly.. this pictures are really beautiful.. I've never seen anything close to this.. really really beautiful.. unlike those.. drawing love at the beach, running around trees.. these picture are like collectable arts.. visit the photographer's website @ www.antevy.com.

With the entire wedding running according to the wedding planer's schedule.. the beautiful wedding welcome the guest to their table, with beautiful Chinese jazz music playing.. on each table, beautiful red roses was placed in the middle of the table.. each guest was given a small little basket ( small version of the basket where the Chinese use to carry dowry in it) & a pair of chopsticks..

all tables are well decorated.. even this source plate was impressive.

the bride was just stunning.. & groom.. was "stunning" too..

this is the first wedding dinner that was served in a fine-dining way..

The cold plate.. lobster, port & fish... (and yes, this hotel do served pork for Chinese wedding, i was so "sam-patly" happy about it because the hotels in Malaysia are all halal and they do not serve pork)

shark fin soup

abalone

cod fish

duck meat & fried rice

Dessert - ginseng longan & pan cake

Wedding Cake

ok... sorry to say that the overlook of this hotel really can't give me the 5-star feeling.. because.. until those bigger hotel like shangri-la KL.. this hotel it not as big. .and it does not have a big lobby area.. but.. I SAY BUT... they give the guest more than a 6 star hotel facilities... those who RSVP that they are bringing kids.. the hotel prepare special kids menu, special kids folks & spoons... and because the ballroom was super cold, they even prepare blanket/towel for you to cover..

again.. congratulation to the both of you... and.. i wish the both of you.. happily ever after..

Cempaka School - Westside Story

2008-11-17T16:20:00.006+08:00

I was invited to Cempaka School, to watch this play, production of Cempaka school. I do not have any other experience watching such wonderful play, compare to my school.. all school performance never come close to what i watched on that night. The cast was really good & they can really sing.. i mean really well singers.. they are like what... 13? 14? years old? they can sing better than most of the singers you listen from Radio. Main cast Claudilea Alexis (Maria) & Leon Ang Ka-Sing (Tony) were really good in both acting and they are both students from Cempaka School..

Of course, other cast like Khalmayn Shamia (Riff), Annastasha Saifol (Anita), Abdul Muhaimin (Bernardo), Yau Ga Luch(Glad Hand), David Prashanth(Doc), Julie Chan (A Girl), etc, you guys were really impress me and really change my perception on Malaysia private school.. i always though that malaysia private school kids can be really rebelious, irritating, spoilt.. etc.. you kids really change my perception of sending our malaysian kids to a private school.. this Play (Westside Story) change my mind of sending my children to private school instead of Goverment school.. i remember back to my school.. the only instruments i learn was "di zhi", and guess what.. in this school... they have the entire ORCHESTRA, their kids play violin, cello, double bass, woodwind, trumpet, french horn, trombone, bass guiter, drum and percussion and keyboard, interesting? i am more than impress when they annouce that there are kids as young as 7 involve in the orchestra.

This Play (Westside Story) is Cempaka school's charity event, i do not have much details, i am also not sure if this is open to public, i assume it is, all i can say is, it worth all the money, the cast, the costume, the music, the set-up, it was way beyond what i expected from a secondary school students, if you are interetest to find out more... try their website or call 03 9076 8400.

ps. they do not allow any photography or videography.. so i actually do not have any pictures.. but yes.. they do invest in their printing - a very nice booklet and ticket.. :)

and yes.. i've this comment later..

Anonymous said...
Shows are available on 21,22 and 23 November 2008, from 7:30 p.m.Ticket Price : RM55,RM70,RM85 and RM90Please call : 9076-8400 for more information

Congratulation to Thevi & Stuart!

2008-11-17T15:07:00.000+08:00

& Welcome baby Aiden!

what have i done so far - Part II

2008-11-10T16:28:00.001+08:00

One of the biggest disadvantage after I quit my job was.. I couldn’t go online as much as I use to. I use to on internet 24-7 before I got married but even after I got married, I can still access to internet at work, like at least 8 hours everyday.. but now… it’s only by opportunity I get to go online.. like now.. which I am at Center Point, trying to get online..

I’ve been enjoying my break so much… entering to the 2nd week of doing nothing but things that I’ve long to do.. or things I used to do when I was a student.. gym, books, cds, not so much of shopping… but lots of catching-up with friends. Overall, I am enjoying my current doing-nothing life. Just that, somehow, feeling quite uncertain what I want to do next. Should I get back to PR agency? Should I consider corporate communication? Marketing? Marketing Communication? Or event trade marketing? Or should I go for a career change like teaching in a primary school? But have to depend on my husband to contribute to the household? Which it is not necessary because I can work, I can make a living without depending on anyone else.. not that I’ve a few babies at home that needs my care.. not that I am sick or ill.. besides the fact that my Psoriasis has been flare up quite badly lately, one of the reason why I am taking so much time to work out at gym and hard working-ly applying medicine… I wonder how long will it take to undo what I’ve badly damage for the past 2 years.. without proper care of them.. they have gone to a stage which I can’t suppress then with my divorex (steroid, cream base) anymore.. it is so bad that it has flare up at places that i have never seen before… I guess I’ve lovely friends and family who are so supportive and so use to seeing them, who does not give me much pressure even when they saw my psoriasis, which can be quite scary if you are seeing it for the very first time… I am hoping to use this 2 months to just focus on stable the condition, as soon as possible, push myself as intense as possible, for what I owe to myself for long time. I can’t be thankful enough for my supportive husband…. Who’s there for me, supporting this “project” all the way… without giving my any pressure..

So.. on what I’ve done so far further update

going gym everyday besides Sunday – checked
continue to do lunch with friends – checked
went to primary school to submit my particular to be temporarily teacher next year– checked
back home to doing some clean up.. -

What have i done so far?

2008-11-05T22:21:00.004+08:00

1. clubbing (Jasmine Ng's Bday) - checked
2. wedding dinner (Rachel) - checked
3. lunch with Jasmine Ng @ Bubba Gump - checked
4. lunch with Josie, WeiLing, Carrie - checked
5. had lunch just with josie @ center point - checked
6. Line dancing with mom - checked
7. gym every alternate day - checked
8. Accompany ems & Jaden for Ad casting - checked
9. having lots of fun - checked
10. feeling so loved & spoiled by hubby - checked..
11. just broken the sofa in my house - checked
12. went for 2 interviews and turned down 2 interviews - checked
13. had 2 hours body massage last night - checked
14. body balance class with my sister - checked
15. sleep as much as i want - checked
16. working hard clearing her psoriasis - checked

Oo so boring..

2008-10-31T17:53:00.004+08:00

before i start..i just wana tell my friends... that.. I thought i was....Sorry friends.. i was few days late and that feature does not have any "waiting" period.. therefore i use the pregnant one.. and sigh.. this morning turn out to be a dissapointment.. but i am fine.. i've the next 2 months off... :)

ok.. so today is my second day off since i left my company... and i am DYING already.. so boring le.... therefore today... i woke up at 9 something and i couldn't sleep back anymore.. "mo mo" on the bed then i went to the gym... .. then back and get myself ready for an interview... :P and i guess i was not very ready for the interview.. plus i am pretty upset by the staff there... and.. i.. left... the.. place... in...the...mid..of...the....interview.... i know i dun sound very responsible... but they dun care either... sigh.. what a crappy company.. sigh... i am not in the mood to write now.. will hav more updates soon.. i hope

depression

2008-10-28T17:29:00.005+08:00

what's wrong with me.. tmr is my last day @ work.. i should be extreamly happy instead of getting more and more moody... argh... nothing seems right to me... the recent edited video seems so wrong.. how do i do the stupid handover shit.. how am i bringing all these things home tmr? argh... WHAT"S WRONG WITH ME... what stupid hormone is went wrong..

香水有毒 - 胡杨林

2008-10-22T17:51:00.001+08:00

我曾经爱过这样一个男人

他说我是世上最美的女人

我为他保留着那一份天真

关上爱别人的门

也是这个被我深爱的男人

把我变成世上最笨的女人

他说的每句话我都会当真

他说最爱我的唇

我的要求并不高

待我像从前一样好

可是有一天你说了同样的话

把别人拥入怀抱

你身上有她的香水味

是我鼻子犯的罪

不该嗅到她的美

擦掉一切陪你睡

你身上有她的香水味

是你赐给的自卑

你要的爱太完美

我永远都学不会

10 Promises to my Dog

2008-10-21T15:34:00.004+08:00

Met up with a few good friends last night and they can't stop talking about this new movie "10 Promises to My Dog". bout 2 years ago when i was reading thru a Chinese newspaper and it touches my heart when i first read The 10 Promises to My Dog, the very first thing i do was to give my lab a big hug.. I've yet to watch the movie.. but i will definitely post my review as soon as i watch it.. here its the preview.. and i shed my tears like 3 times by just watching the preview...

黑白画映 - 张学友

2008-10-20T16:17:00.007+08:00

收拾下自己的心　说给自己听
那黑　那白　全都不在
那风　那梦　风吹熄我的梦
收拾下自己的心　好让天使听　
那黑　那白　全都不在　
那风　那梦　风吹进我的梦
无力抱紧　看着又伤心　偶而想起我爱你　
想追又自己鼓不起勇气　我心中黑白
无力靠近　猜测你的心　今夜又会在那里　
窗外的风起天下起小雨　我心中黑白的画映
我无力找真爱　可怜我只剩下空白
找不到靠近理由　也只能开不了口
静静的我守在窗口　享受这寂寞
无力证明　才让你相信　有个傻子在想你
在想你和我　有一天相遇　我心中黑白的画映

the process of love

2008-10-17T17:57:00.002+08:00

saw this article from one of my fren from facebook.. i must share because i think this is so right.. enjoy this article.. and i will translate it into english.. as soon as i am free from this company.. :)

人的一生就是一个寻找爱的过程，

寻找必然遇到的四个人的过程：

第一个是自己，第二个是你最爱的人，第三个是最爱你的人，第四个是与你共渡一生人。

首先会遇到你最爱的人，然后体会到爱的感觉，因为了解了被爱的感觉，所以才发现最爱你的人，当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才知道什么是你需要的，才会找到最合适你、能够与你相处一生的人。

但悲哀的是，现实生活中，这三个人往往不是同一个人，你最爱的，往往没有选择你，最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的，而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱的也不是最爱你的，只是在最合适的时候出现的寻个人。你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？

没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你，可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，他爱你的时候办法假装不爱你，同样的当他不爱你的时候也没办法假装爱你。

当一个人不爱你要离开你，你要问自己还爱不爱他，如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊崦不肯离开。如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得更好快乐幸福，希望他跟真正爱他的人在一起，绝不会阻止。

你要阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了，而如果你已经不爱他了，你又有什么资格来指责他变心了呢？

爱不是占有，你喜欢月亮，不可能把它摘下来放在脸盆里，但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间，换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种形式拥有，让爱人成为生命里永恒的回忆。

如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子，爱他的好，爱他的坏，爱他的缺点，也爱他的优点，绝不能因为爱他，就把他变成自己所希望的样子，万一变不了，就不爱他了！

Career Change

2008-10-17T11:12:00.002+08:00

Dear friends,

I've been super busy but this is what i am studying lately..
1. Career Change
2. Expert advise & tips on changing your career
3. the 10 step plan to Career Change

:)

LOVE

2008-10-15T09:25:00.001+08:00

"We are told that people stay in love because of chemistry, or because they remain intrigued with each other, because of many kindnesses, because of luck. But part of it has got to be forgiveness and gratefulness." Ellen Goodman

New up coming project..

2008-10-13T14:56:00.001+08:00

quit!

2008-10-06T11:58:00.006+08:00

after several consideration.. i've tendered my resignation letter.. without having any other job in hand.. but well.. don't have to worry much about me.. i quite sure that i will be fine.. i know i will miss all the lovely ppl here.. but.. i really hv to go... i am tired and really don't feeling like explaining it anyone.. .. there's no need to answer to anyone... there are of course a few main reason but i don;t see a point explaining it at all....however... the end results is.. i am jobless and i will be Tai Tai for the next 2 months.. doing nothing but thing i have been trying to do... for example..
1. go to gym EVERYDAY ( i need this badly as my psoraisis are all over now.. )
2. sleep until 10.30am everyday
3. read up all the books that i've bought and also have borrowed from my cousin sister
4. spend more time with my mother and my mother in law..
5. cook for my husband.. breakfasts, lunch and dinner..
6. Hav a pet (Toy Poodle) which hubby promise that he will get for me..:)
7. do some part time job.. meaningless one.. like.. working in a pet shop and learn how to groom my poodle..(i need the money)
8.. sleep late too

sounds pretty busy already right? well.. only 2 months.. i will only allow myself to do that for 2 months only.. after that... i have to work.. still thinking.. hard.. should i
1. work for another coorporation (as corp comm, marketing, trade marketing exec etc)?
2. teach in a primary school? which i think i will enjoy it very much but that will means.. what i've been doing for the past few years are gone and will never get to pick it back it i would to start working again "IF" i decided teaching is not suitable for me "afterall"
3. work in some stress free enviroment? like.. starbucks? as waitress? damn stupid... maybe my aim will be the store manager?

i don't know but i am sure i will have some solution for this... :)

堅持到底 - 阿杜

2008-10-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

在水裡　在火裡　我的愛不偏不倚
就算時光倒回去　我也追到石器世紀
在風裡　在雨裡　你的雨傘吹翻過去
我絕對毫不猶豫　為你披上我的外衣
是你讓我看透生命這東西
四個字　堅持到底
如果沒有你
我的生活回到一片狼藉
是你讓我翻破愛情的秘笈
四個字　堅持到底　
不管有多苦我會全心全力愛你〔堅持〕到底

當你看進我的眼裡　我的心顫抖不已
請讓溫柔的說一句　感覺累的時候讓我抱緊

good food have to come with a company..

2008-09-30T17:30:00.005+08:00

I might never mention this.. but my mom is an excellent cook! :) eating at home always bring alot of joy to me.. always even when there are only 2 dishes on the table.. :)

Chef & Brew... nice place hubby and I recently found out.. Chef & Brew @ Bukit Damansara.....food & envirement.. i give 70/100 :)

of course.. our all time favorite place.. Japanese restaurant in Hilton PJ. :) i will try to take more pictures next time b4 i EAT THEM.. :)

Happy Birthday to "BABY"

2008-09-29T15:35:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to "BABY" (her parents hasen't given her any name yet.. )

sorry i couldn't help to take so many pictures.. she is too adorable.. and she is only 2 days old when i took these pictures.. such a darling.. with such big eyes...

sprained leg - latest update

2008-09-29T15:12:00.003+08:00

wondered how's my sprained leg doing.. thank God and finally.. I am walking without pain now.. close to 2 months ago.. my ankle was badly sprained and only 1 week ago.. i decided to see a specialist.. cos swollen again.. and painful again.. and the doctor ask me to wear an air cast.. for 2 weeks... and.. i am finally walking.. without pain.. and this chinese “铁打“was not helping... it helps for a while.. but doesn't last me long at all..
this was how it looks few days after my leg was sprained.. imagine... within 4 days i manage to host an event.. and that cost me 2 months of pain in walking...

Gaiety Ann

莫文蔚-如果沒有你

你说呢？

It can really stress u out~

阿牛陈庆祥 一点点

开学了

A new Chapter..

updates on student who refuse to do his homework.

Students who refuse to do their homework

教总教育资讯网 - 致函教育部，以反映有关假期师训班的事宜

王力宏『柴米油鹽醬醋茶』完整版MV English Subs

Condolence

蕭煌奇 - 愛作夢的人 MV (HQ)

江蕙--風吹風吹

Feeling the need to talk to myself.

feeling betrayed & cheated..

making everyday special

A place you call your very own place..

no child is stupid, it all depends on the teacher's capabilities

emo morning

It stop... n came back again

failure..

going on fertility pills for the next cycle

done it.. Hysterosalpingogram(HSG)

哭 - 林憶蓮

a Call to Dr Delaila office

A day back home

something I not sure

Pending

A phone call from Dr Delaila Clinic

so here it comes the consultation..

interesting.. finally..

forgot how it feels like to be sick

Michael Jackson’s “This Is It”

Life's like that

tick tock tick tock

梅艷芳 - 下輩子別再做女人

lazy or nothing to update?

the missing me

郭靜 - 在樹上唱歌

別愛我-鄭中基

Its has been a while...

tribute to MJ... deeply missed..

missing you badly Micheal..

Michael Joseph Jackson... Rest In Peace

Times of you life - 王若琳

Suprisingly good Singer － 谭晶

乔家大院

Otak-otak place@ One Utama

写一首歌-顺子

dedicated to my mother..

妈妈 歌词

update: HFMD / Throat infection

Hand Foot & Mouth disease(HFMD) / throat infection!

Throat Infection? chikukunya? or hand foot & mouth disease?

Maya

suprise！

hmmm...

and this one.. forever friends...

I am still feeling Olympic - You & Me

STOP GETTING FATTER!

SPM Ulangan 2009

Goverment School vs Private School

for Mom to Ashley

of all things.. another surgery (super minor one)

Slipping through my fingers

on holiday

王若琳 Times of your life

in Pain

back on track

Retrench?

愛妳！愛妳- 黄品源

遇见天使 － 何禹萱

something missing

I miss blogging

Merry Christmas

Psoriasis - Exorex Moisturising Cream & Exorex Lotion

I Want To Thank God for..

BLT = Butt, Leg & Tummy

Can't Smile Without You

阿牛陈庆祥一点点

Suprisingly good Singer －谭晶

妈妈歌词

遇见天使－何禹萱